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Chapter 5

“She’s August Harding’s daughter.”

His voice was flat and constructed. The construction cost precisely enough for me to hear it.

“She’s here because of a blood debt. When her father pays, she leaves. If he doesn’t pay soon, she leaves anyway.”

“You’re going to send her away.”

“Yes.”

“Even if you don’t want to?”

The pause before his answer lasted too long for any denial afterward to be completely believable.

I remained motionless on the balcony, the book in my lap and my heart performing that inconvenient movement inside my chest.

“Especially if I don’t want to,” he said eventually.

His voice carried the quality of a decision made before the conversation began, the kind of decision a person makes not because he wants to but because he believes he must.

Nico did not respond immediately.

When he spoke, his voice possessed a softness I had never heard from him, older and more tired than his usual tone.

“You’re going to regret it.”

“I’ve already decided.”

“Romolo, she reorganized the library. She stood in the rain with a book. She made Cora like her in 4 days, and Cora doesn’t like anyone in less than a year.”

A pause.

“You know exactly what she is.”

“I do.”

The weight within those 2 words reached the balcony without diminishing across the distance.

“That’s exactly why.”

Nico’s footsteps receded.

Silence returned.

I remained on the balcony for a long time, looking down at the dark garden, at the rosebushes I could not see but whose location I knew, and at the fountain I could hear without seeing.

I tried to organize what I had heard into a form that would fit inside me without occupying too much space.

I could not.

There is a fundamental difference between suspecting something and hearing it spoken in a particular voice. That difference has edges, weight, and the exact temperature of something that will alter everything before anyone knows how.

He knew what he felt.

He had said that he would send me away especially because he did not want to.

It was simultaneously the most honest and the most painful thing I had heard during those weeks. There was something profoundly unfair about the fact that a man’s honesty could wound in the same way a lie did.

I went to bed without reading.

I lay on my back, staring at the ceiling with my arms at my sides and my mind working at its familiar, steady rhythm.

I thought about gardens, shared silences, and a man who had made tea at 2:00 in the morning, watched me stand in the rain, and said “especially if I don’t want to” in the voice of someone who had already decided that protection was the only form of love he knew how to offer.

Perhaps the problem was not what he felt.

The problem was what he intended to do about it.

I knew before anyone told me.

It was not because of concrete information, an overheard conversation, or a document carelessly left on a table.

I knew because the air in the mansion felt different that morning—tenser and, at the same time, more resolved, like the atmosphere after an important decision has been made but not announced.

Cora brought coffee with a silence denser than usual. Her eyes moved between me and the tray too frequently to be accidental.

Nico did not appear at breakfast, which after weeks of coexistence was unusual enough to register.

Then there was the garden.

After coffee, I went to the glass door and stood with my hand on the frame, looking outside with the involuntary attention the body develops for things it is about to lose before the mind receives official notice.

Morning light struck the rosebushes at the particular angle I had learned to distinguish on weekends. The fountain made its usual sound. The empty stone path followed contours I had memorized without intending to.

I had made that garden mine without permission or any signed declaration, simply through weeks of accumulated presence until the spaces carried the trace of someone who had occupied them long enough to matter.

That knowledge arrived with the quiet weight of something that had been true for so long that admitting it no longer changed anything. It merely gave the truth a name.

I did not open the door.

I returned to the bedroom and sat on the edge of the bed with my hands folded in my lap, my mind working in the silent rhythm it used when processing something it would rather avoid.

I looked at the closet and the clothes purchased in my size by someone who had anticipated my presence with a precision that disturbed me during the 1st week and had become, over time, 1 of the many things about the mansion I no longer questioned.

I looked at the nightstand, the cup of tea Cora had delivered and that remained warm, and the botany book opened to the page describing the plant in the garden’s eastern corner. The note I had written 2 days earlier was still folded against the margin.

I had arrived with 2 objectives that seemed absolute and simple: survive and leave.

At some point between the 1st week and that Monday morning, with warm tea beside me, an open book, and the garden beyond the glass door, 1 of those objectives had changed its address without my authorization.

Cora knocked with her precise pattern of 3 taps.

She transmitted the message with the formal care of someone instructed to use exact language: the gentleman wished to see me in his office when I was available.

When I was available, as though I had a schedule in that mansion and as though the phrase were not simply the polite version of now.

I stood, adjusted my hair in the mirror without really examining what I was adjusting, and left.

I took the longer route, the corridor that passed the library, because there was something about that journey I needed before making the other.

I entered the open library for only a moment and stood looking at the shelves I had organized weeks earlier: history against the rear wall, cartography beside the properly lit window, and my notes remaining in the books I had browsed, written in my small, slanted handwriting.

The room belonged to me in a way the bedroom never had.

The bedroom had been prepared for me.

I had prepared the library myself.

The difference mattered in a way I could not articulate then but felt precisely.

I left, went downstairs, and knocked on the office door because this time it seemed like the correct gesture.

“Come in.”

His deep voice crossed the door easily.

He stood in the middle of the office.

He was not seated over documents, leaning beside the window, or occupying any position I had cataloged as usual for Romolo Castelli at rest.

He stood motionless, his shoulders straight, his dark suit and tie perfectly arranged.

There was something exposed in that vertical stillness. Furniture and distance functioned as shields, and he had chosen to stand without either.

I registered that before anything else.

“Your father paid,” he said.

His voice was flat and direct, that of someone reading an announcement. There was no introduction or ornament.

That was how he did difficult things: directly and without unnecessary softening because softening was a kind of condescension he did not practice.

I remained 2 m from the door and allowed the information to occupy the space it required before attempting to respond.

“The debt is settled,” he continued.

He went to the window with the movement of someone requiring distance but possessing nowhere to go. Leaving the room was not an option. The window was the only point that offered something other than me.

“You can leave today. The car is available whenever you want.”

“Romolo.”

“Skye.”

My name in his voice carried the quality he could not remove regardless of how much distance he attempted to build around it, the direct and present thing that arrived before any filter.

“This was always going to end this way.”

“I know how it was supposed to end.”

I took 1 step.

It was only 1, but a minimal tension in his shoulders told me he noticed.

“Do you know what happened in the middle?”

He remained silent, looking through the window toward the garden I could not see from there but whose precise appearance I knew: morning light on the roses, the fountain, and the stone path whose contours I had memorized.

“Nothing happened,” he said.

The word entered the room with a weight entirely disproportionate to its size. It remained between us with the dense presence of something that had been spoken and could not be recalled.

I listened to it with all the attention it deserved.

“Nothing,” I repeated slowly, allowing him to hear his own lie returned syllable by syllable.

“You can say that.”

“It’s the truth.”

“It’s a lie.”

My voice was firm, without trembling or volume. Genuine anger requires neither. It requires precision, clarity, and presence.

I possessed all 3 with an intensity accumulated across weeks.

“You know it is.”

He turned.

It was the worst and most inevitable moment for him to do so.

My eyes were full, and I refused to allow the tears to fall. I held them with all the stubbornness that had kept me whole during those weeks and had become the most expensive thing I possessed inside those walls.

The courage to stand shattered before someone without retreating had always cost me more than any other because it exposed me completely.

He looked at me.

His expression contained none of the coldness of our 1st days or the hardness of documents and calculated glances.

He was simply a man looking at something he wanted and had decided not to possess, paying the price of that decision in real time with an involuntary honesty that hurt more than deliberate cruelty would have.

Cruelty offers something against which to defend oneself.

This offered no defense.

“You need to leave, Skye.”

“Why?”

The question emerged before I decided to release it, not because I had lost control but because I had reached the point where restraining questions required energy I no longer possessed.

“Because my father says so? Because I’m the enemy’s daughter? Because sending me away is easier than admitting—”

“Because if you stay, I won’t be able to do what I need to do.”

The silence after that sentence contained the particular texture of real honesty, the kind that escapes despite its cost because containing it has become more expensive than releasing it.

I stood motionless and processed the words with all the attention they deserved, although I did not know how much longer I could maintain it.

“What do you need to do?”

1 breath.

Then another.

When he spoke, his voice had lowered in a way that made every word more physical, immediate, and impossible not to feel in the place where I was already feeling it.

“Protect you from my world. From myself.”

I did not slam the door.

That was a deliberate decision.

Part of me wanted the sound, the gesture, and the physical satisfaction of doing something concrete with everything compressed inside me.

I had learned, however, that the reactions that reached this particular man most deeply were always the most controlled.

I left with even steps, closed the door with the same soft click, and walked along the corridor with a calm that was half genuine and half constructed.

I needed it to last until I reached the upper floor.

It did.

I took what belonged to me, which was less than I had begun to believe because most of what I had accumulated within those walls was not the kind of thing that could be placed in a bag.

The botany book remained on the nightstand.

My notes remained in the library.

The garden remained where it was because that was the only place it could remain.

Cora stood in the hallway when I emerged carrying my bag.

She said nothing. She walked beside me to the foot of the stairs with the quiet, solid presence that had become 1 of the most constant and honest things in the mansion.

On the final step, she stopped.

I turned with the bag across my shoulder and eyes I was keeping dry through an effort that had nearly reached its limit.

I placed my hand on her arm for 1 second.

She did not move away.

“Thank you for the tea.”

She made the small movement of her chin that represented everything she had decided did not need to be spoken.

She remained at the foot of the stairs while I crossed the hall, counting the steps I had counted so many times.

18 from the bedroom to the stairs.

12 from the stairs to the hall.

8 from the hall to the main door.

I counted them again automatically.

The air outside had the temperature and scent of air beyond a place where someone has remained too long. It differed from the air inside in a way that becomes perceptible only while leaving.

I stood at the entrance for 1 second with sunlight on my shoulders.

The fountain sounded distantly from the side of the garden I refused to look toward because looking was something I could not do at that moment and remain standing the way I needed to.

The car waited at the entrance.

The driver opened the door without being asked.

Before entering, I turned.

I looked at the facade with the particular clarity of a final glance, the kind the gaze develops when it knows it is storing something and wants to do it correctly.

Dark stone. Arches. Tall windows.

May you like

The office window upstairs was covered by a curtain, closed and opaque, with no one visible from outside.

I entered the car.

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