Chapter 2 - I unpacked my small suitcase into one drawer.

Three dresses. Two sweaters. A worn black notebook. A wooden rosary. A faded photograph of Sister Agnese standing beside me on the day I left Santa Chiara. And my mother’s music box.
I placed the music box on the nightstand.
Its painted lid was chipped at one corner. If wound carefully, it played a melody so familiar and painful that I rarely listened to it. My mother had owned it before she died. I remembered her hands winding it at night, though her face had blurred over the years in a way that felt like betrayal.
I did not wind it.
I lay in bed fully dressed for almost an hour, listening to the house.
Large houses are never truly silent. They breathe through pipes, floors, curtains, distant footsteps, and rooms no one enters. Near midnight, a car rolled over gravel outside. A door closed. Men’s voices murmured below. Once, I heard a sound like someone crying, but it might have been wind pressing through old stone.
At two in the morning, my bedroom door opened.
I sat up instantly.
Rosalba stood barefoot in the doorway, Pepe tucked beneath one arm, her eyes open but unfocused.
“Water,” she whispered.
I slid from the bed. “Are you thirsty?”
She shook her head.
“Water on the floor.”
I moved closer slowly. Her face was pale, her expression distant. She was not fully awake.
“Rosalba?”
She turned and began walking down the hall.
I followed.
We passed her bedroom, then Mrs. Petrov’s door, then moved toward the older wing of the house, where the carpet darkened and the air became colder. The portraits here were older, the faces less polished, their eyes following from gilded frames.
At the end of the hall stood a pair of narrow doors with brass handles.
Rosalba stopped before them.
Her hand lifted.
Before she touched the door, a voice came from behind us.
“Step away.”
I turned.
Raimondo stood at the far end of the corridor in shirtsleeves and dark trousers, his hair slightly disordered, his face drawn with exhaustion. Without the black jacket and perfect armor of the afternoon, he looked less like a myth and more like a man who had not slept properly in years.
Rosalba startled awake.
“Papa?”
He crossed the hall quickly and crouched before her.
“Piccola,” he murmured, gathering her gently into his arms. “Why are you out of bed?”
“Water,” she whispered against his shoulder.
His eyes closed.
Only for a second.
But I saw the pain pass over his face.
Then he looked at me.
“I followed her,” I said. “I didn’t want to leave her alone.”
“You should have called Mrs. Petrov.”
“She was already walking.”
His gaze moved to the door behind me.
“What is this room?” I asked.
His expression hardened.
“Nothing for you.”
That was not the same as nothing.
Rosalba, half-asleep against his chest, whispered, “Mama sang there.”
Raimondo went still.
The silence became unbearable.
He shifted his daughter carefully in his arms. “Go back to your room, Miss Spinelli.”
His voice did not rise.
It did not need to.
I obeyed.
But that did not mean I stopped wondering.
The next morning, the house behaved as though nothing had happened.
Rosalba remembered none of it, or pretended not to. Mrs. Petrov served breakfast upstairs and watched me closely when I asked whether sleepwalking was common.
“Common enough,” she said.
“Always to the same room?”
She poured tea.
“Some questions are best asked after surviving longer than one night.”
“Is that advice or warning?”
“Yes.”
Rosalba spent the morning with lessons. She read well above her age, corrected the grammar in a picture book, and informed me that stories where mothers vanished were “written by people who did not know what else to do with them.”
I did not know how to answer that.
So I asked, “What stories do you like?”
“Maps.”
“Maps are not stories.”
“They are if someone is lost.”
That silenced me.
By afternoon, the house filled with visitors.
Not ordinary visitors.
Men in dark suits arrived in quiet cars. Mrs. Petrov instructed Rosalba and me to remain upstairs. Voices moved behind closed doors below, low and controlled. Once, while returning from the library with an atlas in my arms, I looked over the balcony and saw Raimondo speaking to an older man with silver hair and a narrow face.
The man glanced up.
His eyes found Rosalba beside me.
They stayed too long.
I stepped slightly in front of her.
The man smiled.
It was not a pleasant smile.
“Who is that?” I asked once we were back in the nursery.
Rosalba arranged wooden blocks into a wall. “Uncle Silvio.”
“Your father’s brother?”
“No. People say uncle when a man is old and dangerous but not family.”
I pressed my lips together.
“Do you like him?”
She knocked one block off the wall.
“No.”
Near evening, Mrs. Petrov appeared with a gray dress over one arm.
“Mr. Castaldi requests Rosalba at dinner,” she said.
Rosalba looked up sharply.
“Downstairs?”
“Yes.”
Her face closed.
I knelt beside her. “Would you like me to come with you?”
She nodded so quickly it hurt my heart.
Mrs. Petrov handed me the dress. “You as well.”
The small dining room would have been called grand anywhere else. Blue silk wallpaper, dark wood trim, candles glowing on a long polished table. Raimondo stood near the fireplace when we entered. Silvio sat already, swirling red wine in his glass.
His gaze moved over me with amused interest.
“So this is the singing nanny,” he said.
Raimondo’s face remained unreadable.
“This is Mariela Spinelli.”
“Of course.” Silvio lifted his glass slightly. “The house is already less quiet.”
Rosalba’s hand found mine beneath the table.
I closed my fingers gently around hers.
Dinner began with soup served in porcelain bowls. Rosalba ate carefully beside her father. When her spoon slipped, Raimondo reached down and picked it up before any servant could move. He replaced it quietly, then nudged her bread closer without a word.
A small thing.
But small things tell the truth.
He loved her.
Whatever darkness moved through this house, whatever men whispered behind doors, whatever stories carried the Castaldi name into fear, Raimondo loved his daughter with the unpracticed tenderness of a man who had little else left unguarded.
Silvio watched the gesture.
“Children adapt quickly,” he said. “A new nanny, a song, and suddenly old grief becomes decoration.”
Raimondo’s hand stilled near his glass.
“The house remembers enough.”
“Does it?” Silvio smiled. “I have always found houses loyal only to those who remain inside them.”
The air sharpened.
Rosalba’s fingers tightened around mine.
I looked at Silvio. “Children remember too.”
His smile turned toward me.
“Yes. But not always correctly.”
“Adults have that problem as well.”
Mrs. Petrov froze near the sideboard.
Silvio laughed softly.
“Sharp,” he said. “Where did you find this one, Raimondo?”
Raimondo answered without looking away from him.
“In a place you were not looking.”
The conversation ended there, but the tension did not.
After dinner, I took Rosalba upstairs. She remained quiet while I helped her change into her nightgown and tuck Pepe into his proper place.
“Uncle Silvio doesn’t like Mama,” she said suddenly.
I paused.
“What makes you think that?”
“He says her name like medicine.”
“Bitter medicine?”
She nodded.
“Did he come here when your mother was here?”
Rosalba’s face tightened.
“He shouted.”
My pulse slowed.
“At your mother?”
“I don’t know.” She rubbed Pepe’s ear. “There was rain.”
I sat beside her bed. “Was it the night she disappeared?”
Rosalba looked at me sharply.
Then she nodded.
Before I could ask more, she whispered, “Please sing.”
So I sang.
I kept my voice low and steady. The melody filled the pink room softly, wrapping around the canopy bed, the rabbit, the child who remembered too much in fragments.
When she slept, I sat beside her for a long time.
That was where Raimondo found me.
He stood at the doorway, one hand on the frame.
“You ask many questions,” he said.
I stood carefully. “Your daughter answers few of them.”
“That should tell you something.”
“It tells me she is afraid of hurting you.”
His face changed.
Only slightly, but enough that I regretted the pain in the words even though they were true.
He looked at Rosalba asleep beneath the blanket.
“She was three when Alessia disappeared,” he said.
I did not move.
He had offered a door.
I was afraid to step through it too quickly.
“Mrs. Petrov told me her name.”
“Petrov tells more than she means to.”
“She cares about Rosalba.”
“Yes.”
He came farther into the room, but his footsteps made no sound on the rug.
“Alessia loved music,” he said. “Not publicly. Not professionally. Only in rooms where she felt safe.”
“She wrote the moon song?”
His eyes moved to me. “What makes you ask that?”
“I don’t know.”
That was not true.
I knew because the song felt too personal to be merely remembered. I knew because Rosalba called it Mama’s song. I knew because Raimondo’s voice changed whenever it entered the room.
But I had no proof.
Not yet.
Raimondo looked away. “She wrote many things.”
“Where is she?”
The question hung between us.
For a moment, I thought he would dismiss me.
Instead, he said, “I don’t know.”
The answer was rawer than grief.
“Do you think she left?”
“No.”
“Do you think she died?”
His jaw tightened.
“I think if she were dead, someone would have wanted me to find the body.”
The quietness of the words chilled me more than any threat could have.
This was not a man speaking theatrically.
This was a man who had spent two years searching.
“I’m sorry,” I said.
This time, he did not tell me not to mean it.
He only looked at Rosalba.
“She asks for you,” he said. “That matters.”
“She is lonely.”
“Yes.”
“So are you.”
The words slipped out.
His gaze returned to me, dark and warning.
I should have apologized.
I didn’t.
Loneliness filled that house more completely than flowers filled the entrance hall. It sat in every unused room, every locked door, every child’s careful sentence.
Finally, Raimondo said, “Loneliness is not part of your employment.”
“No,” I said softly. “But it may be part of why I understand the job.”
He did not answer.
Then, from somewhere far down the hall, a faint melody began.
Thin.
Mechanical.
Familiar.
The moon song.
Raimondo went completely still.
I turned toward the sound.
It came from the old wing.
From behind the doors Rosalba had approached in her sleep.
The music trembled through the hallway like a memory waking.
Rosalba stirred in bed.
Raimondo crossed to her immediately, placing one hand lightly over her back. She settled again, but her face pinched as if the song had entered her dream.
“Stay with her,” he said.
“No.”
His eyes snapped to mine.
I lowered my voice. “If someone is doing this, they want her to hear it. They want her frightened.”
His face hardened.
“You think I don’t know that?”
“I think you are too angry to notice what they want next.”
That was dangerous.
I knew it the moment I said it.
But Raimondo did not explode. He stared at me for a long second, then moved toward the door.
I followed.
He did not tell me to stop.
The hallway was empty.
The melody grew louder as we approached the old wing. The brass handles on the narrow doors caught the dim light. Raimondo stopped in front of them.
The song continued behind the wood.
His hand lifted to the handle.
Then hesitated.
Only for a moment.
But I saw it.
This man, whose name made guards straighten and strangers whisper, could not open his missing wife’s door without his hand betraying him.
I did not think.
I reached out and placed my fingers gently over his.
“You don’t have to do it alone,” I said.
He looked down at my hand as if no one had touched him without permission in years.
Then he turned the handle.
The door opened.
Cold air spilled out.
The room beyond was dark, lit only by moonlight. Furniture stood beneath white sheets. A vanity. A wardrobe. A long mirror. A piano near the window with a music box on top.
Its lid was open.
It was playing by itself.
The melody slowed, then stopped.
Raimondo stepped inside first. I followed, heart pounding.
The air smelled of dust, lavender, and something unexpected.
Salt.
Like the sea.
On the piano bench lay a folded note.
Fresh paper.
Raimondo picked it up.
I watched his face as he read.
The color drained from it.
“What does it say?” I whispered.
May you like
He did not answer.
So I looked.